I'M AN IDIOT!!!!!!
J. blew me off last night. Just called him and he didn't even answer. I fucking hate men almost as much as I hate myself. My stupid fucking self.
My head feels like it's going to explode. I don't know what to do with myself. The anger is stiffening my muscles, preparing me to fight. I'm pissed.
SO MUCH FOR BEING FRIENDS YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
And yet I was stupid enough to hook up with him last weekend. So. Stupid.
CAN I PLEASE JUST LEARN THIS LESSON PLEASE????
He just called me back, I did not answer.