Quick update

I'm back! It was great! Not so great to go right back to work but that's life for us middle class folk. I did NOT see T. We are not going to be friends. He is blocked and behind me. I have no tears left to cry for him. I will just say that he is a total asshole and finding that out took me by surprise but there were signs and red flags. I want to say I "should" have known. But the truth is, I knew when I knew. I gave him one chance to be friends. And that will be it. I don't regret wanting to see the good in someone. I don't regret falling for an illusion. I'm only fucking human. I love that I want to love someone. I have a huge heart that still has hope and I'm proud of that. T. would be lucky to be with me. It is his loss 100% and it never had to be this way. He talks this huge game about being so evolved but it's a complete fabrication. He is a fraud and I feel duped. Trying to feel compassion for myself, first and foremost, and I can see myself eventually getting there with him. But not now. His actions have been too shady. 

I got distracted so I'll be back later.