"Imagine" by john lennon is my background music

i am missing someone. i don't know who, and i don't know why. there is a dull ache echoing through my heart continuously. i am lonely, fake, and fruitless. i am sitting here by myself drinking beer; i stuffed an entire pizza for one down my throat without even tasting it. i was hungry. now i'm lonely. my neck hurts from my hunched shoulders. i don't remember being young. i feel lost. i barely remember tom. i have several addictions. blogging is not one of them.