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Monday, January 17, 2011

Muse

Disadvantages of not eating: weak knees, painful joints, light-headedness, numb finger tips, fatigue, back aches, weird periods, self-consciousness (due to thinking the world revolves around me & my weight loss), isolation, lies, mood swings, "hunger"...

Advantages of not eating: no fat looking jiggly, no turkey arms, no thunder thighs, no double chin, no tummy pooch, no fat ass, thinness...

It's 1:30 on Monday morning. I'm extremely proud to say that I fasted all of Sunday. It makes me feel strong and yet weak. I know I've said this before but it makes me sad to know that I can't be happy without being thin. Being the thinnest girl in the room does wonders for my self esteem.

I need to STAY STRONG!  I can eat tomorrow, but ONLY HEALTHY FOOD. If that. Maybe I'll just continue this fast for as long as possible. I'll let you know.

Think thin! Because nothing out there, nothing you could possibly make, will taste better than THIN feels. When you feel thin you feel heaven.

Much love and peace to you all.

~Sar~

1 comment:

warlocksmistress said...

"Being the thinnest girl in the room does wonders for my self esteem."

I can completely relate to this. The only time I felt comfortable in my skin was when I was thinner than everyone else around me. Then I was happy.

SO warped.