Things have been weird and changing, my moods have shifted with the wind and my stomach is still a huge source of discontent. I am listening to K.T. Turnstall and my neck aches from holding up this heavy head. My heart is healing, I am basically over J. I did dream about him last night. Not *about* him but he was a "co-star". We traveled and must have been dating because in my dream my arm wrapped around his waist so naturally I am recoiling at the conscious thought of it.
It snowed last night; today I woke up to white sprinkles on the dead green grass. The sun was out briefly, which melted some of it, but now it's just gray and foreboding outside; I wish to stay in but I've got to work tonight.
Stretching feels so good and makes me yawn.
5 weeks of college left. I can hardly believe it. I'm doing it, I'm going to do it, I'm going to graduate college with a bachelor's degree. I will be a Graduate.
But not yet.
I have so much work to do still. Here's what I'm doing:
Class 1: A presentation next friday and 15 page research paper.
Class 2: A PowerPoint & research paper project, plus 2 more blogs with sources (and comments).
Class 3: A debate, an exam, quizzes.
Class 4: 2 more exams, a research paper.
Good Lord. Plus regular work (outside of school), taking care of me and the cat, and planning for the near future (when my lease ends & I graduate- I'm moving AGAIN).
I can do this all. I will be successful. I am capable, intelligent, strong-willed, and on top of things. I am aware.
Stay strong, all. Think thin.
Today is a restricting day for me. I am fine with that and in control.