well hello

well hello

Saturday, June 5, 2010


My mom told me I "verbally abuse" her.

How am I supposed to take that? I feel bad...I just can't change. I am miserable and taking it out on whoever is around. What a bitch I am.

In other news, yesterday was one long binge.

Today: 1 tofurky beer brat on 1 slice of whole wheat bread with mustard and lettuce. 1 slice of watermelon.

I feel fat because I AM FAT!

Fat and bitchy.

Ugh when will this self-loathing end? I suppose I am in charge of all that. I just have too many loose ends, STILL. The god damn fire really put a damper on my life. Fuck you fire. Fuck you girl that started it. FUCK YOU WORLD!!!!!!!!


Last night I bought a new digital camera. Progress pics coming soon.
Today (in one hour) I am going to the mall with my friend.

How do you deal with anger? I need some ideas.

Think thin (:


Charr. said...

I agree. FUCK THE FIRE. That's so terrible, I can't believe that happened to you > <
I don't know how you can take out the anger :/ Have a bath with candles maybe? I do that sometimes.. it sounds really lame but it's soo relaxing :]
Feel better dear.

VictoriaCrimson said...

Can't wait for the progress pics!!! Sounds like you had a good day today. Ugh my mother tells me the same thing. Sometimes, I have to wonder if it's her hypersensitivity or REALLY me being a bitch. I think it's a combination. Because she's one right back. Keep up the good work :)


Emry said...

"Being aware of your crap and actually overcoming your crap are two very different things.” -Dr. Cristina Yang, Grey's Anatomy

I totally agree with this. I know a lot of issues I have with my own personality & such, but just because I am aware it doesn't mean I know exactly how to overcome them.

When I am angry, I write journals or run on my elliptical.

MyNameIsMellon said...

Ana and bitchiness usually go hand and hand. I found that out the hard way. Control it, don't let it control you. You are the master of ana, she is not the master of you. Make it a choice (your choice) not a necessity (although it may seem like the same things at time). Anyway, I love you so please love yourself. Your in my thoughts <3 <3

Anonymous said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.