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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Quickly now.

I need your support more than ever. Please.

I have been binging my face off. I don't know what my deal is. I can think about "why" all I want, but it changes nothing. I am uncomfortably full right now. It is 6:30 in the morning. I am still full from last night. I hate that! Because in a few hours (@work) I will feel the beginnings of hunger. But you know I will not indulge.

I am so beyond disgusted with myself and my body right now. I was doing so good!!!
It seems like we are all struggling right now and I am sad that the new year has so far not brought me strength. I fucking need it.

I have to work at 7:15. Sigh. I do not want to go. I have barely slept at all. I have to train someone too, some girl. My only hope is that she is thin. I need all the thinspo I can get.

I am starting a fast. I have to. I have no choice here. Please please leave support, readers, I am not doing so well : (

Think thin lovelies...



SBB said...

I am so sorry that your in binge mode. You always have support here! I'll join you in a liquid fast if you would like? Coffee, water, maybe some of that Cup-A-Soup (65cal things).. Let me know if you're interested!
Hopefully the new grls skinny - work thinspo is awesome!

Blue Butterfly said...

There's usually a reason behind a binge. Thinking "why" might not seem constructive post-binge, but it might help prevent, or at least cut down the frequency of future binges.

Run off the extra calories consumed. Was tonight's binge an attack of the late-night munchies? Sleeping earlier might help prevent that. If you find it difficult to sleep, lavender oil and green tea usually works!


glass-skin said...

Reach for water when you feel hunger taking over- it still takes control to choose water over food, but at least you will be filling yourself up and getting rid of the hunger, calorie free.

Just throwing this out there, since it seems like you can't be at a computer all day for commenting or emailing or anything like that to get support. If you can text Canada, I wouldn't mind being a texting buddy (wow it sounds weird to offer that >_>).

You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. You can do this.

Birdie said...

Keep your head up - it's always a huge challenge to start another day after the day before was bad. You can do it - maybe try eating really low calorie mini-snacks every 2-3 hours and then from there you can ease into a fast. It might help - good luck!

xx, Birdie

R said...

Aww hope your day at work is going well, dear.

Not sure if you are fasting or restricting today but whichever you ended up doing, I hope it is going well. It is really hard to stop the binge cycle but I know you can!! Be strong and most importantly, happy. Sending you lots of strength and love